Some days are just shit. In the moment I always feel defeated and disappointed, and a bit disgruntled but later down the road when I look back I can see more clear. I learned lessons and new things. It’s no different than justifying mistakes or bad decisions. Yay! I fucked up! I can learn from this! I also get to experience feelings which are a reminder that I’m human and capable of connecting with other humans and it is a gift.
Please hug your daughter for me. Depression is both a miserable and beautiful experience.