Thank you. I was strongly against medication for as long as I can remember but the older I got the more difficult it became to maintain on my own. I started taking an antidepressant and benzo in May 2016. It was amazing how much it helped my depression and anxiety, but unfortunately it wasn’t treating the manic episodes. Now that I started taking a mood stabilizer, as that increases the antidepressant and benzo will decrease.
I never realized had bad I actually felt until the medication helped me feel better. It takes a while to get stable on meds but for me it’s been well worth it. Good luck to you! It’s a rocky road but one worth traveling.