“Unsurprised.” This has got me thinking. It was a surprise. It was a shock, even. It still is. I would think it wouldn’t be a surprise but it was, it is, you just hope that it never happens I guess which is the most unrealistic thought process to have.

Eighteen hours previous to where this story begins another family member died from a heroin overdose. We lost two loved ones in a 24 hour time period and the thing is I still can’t believe either of them are gone and that this is really even happening. Knowing their struggles there’s this part of me that is immensely aware this is an unenviable outcome when left to their own devices while the rest of us are left wondering what we could have, should have done differently.